Back to church once again, thought that I was late, end up kinda early and Hazel asked me want to be in the Praise Team for the day, agree for that, went up to the side of the stage, a new experienced for 1st time. Worshipping and jump ALOT on the stage, good thing is I get used to spot lights that shines on me, not that bad neway, just never thought that the heat is so strong. Felt that I am melting on stage.
Heard from what Ps. Joshua says today.. I felt more terrible, felt more terrible that what I have done pass few days .. or maybe a week ago. Think back and i felt more and more sad bout the decision that I've made. I wish I can turn back the time. Guess by now I got a good reason to say sorry ..
To the person .. U noe who are u .. I am really sorry, esp what Ps. Joshua said today .. makes me felt more terrible, I feel like crying, but can I, or should I? I got no idea how to cheer up again, at least I run out of idea to cheering myself up like usual. Think of happy things like what Wei Pyng said ? Hmm .. if there is something I can be happy bout it. So I just apologize .. u told me b4 stop sorrying, but in my the deepest of my heart, I really feel extremely terrible, there is no word that able to express the feeling of mine.
Moody and drove all the way back, drop by somewhere near my house and get a burger for dinner, end up know a gal name Fiza, hmm .. sounds weird, buying a burger can get to know a person. But is not able to cheer me up by knowing someone new. I guess, I still the moody person that I am.
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